还真是堕落啊，一堆要干的事情。

不过就是干不下去，不知道为什么。

上次是跟jessie抱怨说对生活越来越麻木，以前很在乎的事情现在都竟然可以眼看着它从自己手里黄了，心里是觉得遗憾和郁闷，却提不起精神下定决心一定把它做好。jessie说可能是在一个地方呆太久了吧，没有了passion。没错，还要再呆两年的事实让我对毕业丝毫没有感觉，对越来越多的事情无所谓，自己的承诺越来越没有用，规定自己今天一定要写完两篇作文，但到了晚上一定可以给自己找一个理由睡觉。总之，就是提不起精神。这个状态持续了好久，真是可悲。自从上学期以来我就以心情不好经常放纵自己，放纵到现在已然成了一种习惯，可怕的习惯——在困难面前低头。

忘了有次是谁跟我说是因为我的生活太安逸了～that's possibly the truth~没有什么事情刺激得我非得拼命不可——潜意识里我是不是觉得这样的生活不错。唉，人还真是不能堕落，一太失去了拼搏的状态干什么都不爽。

不过自己还是挺幸福的，虽然这段时间一直是单身的日子，却没有觉得孤独，相反却多了很多好朋友，多了很多开心的瞬间和难忘的事情。

今天一早起来看了wangliu的blog，很喜欢他的背景音乐，也喜欢他那种没事贫一把的风格，呵呵。发现自己很容易被音乐感动，原本比较着急的心情被那段不知名的音乐变得一片明朗，才有心情到这里扯一通。

昨天无聊去星座版上看了看，哈哈，发现超级准。肯定会被人鄙视说每个人去看都会觉得有些准也有些不准，不过我还是觉得蛮准的，虽然GRE把astrology列为伪科学行列，常常用astrology和physics之类进行真伪类比。适当相信伪科学，放松放松开心一下也是挺好的，呵呵。不过我比较expecting的是会不会像那上面的predict的那样呢？哈哈，鉴于它对于我的2006和三月份都八卦得很准，我暂且相信它一回。

写作文去了～ Fighting!

So long a time since my last updating, for both of my laziness and the damn internet.

It is true that people will gonna become numb staying in the same place for too long a time, just as what i am being now. Drawing near the theoreticly most impressive graduation of life, i have neither nostalgia nor even such sort of sense. And no passion or vision for future. Maybe it is because i have been accepted as the master candidate for examination free; i gained it so easily, which thus means little to me and could hardly motivate myself by any reason.

What am i pursuing? What am I expecting? and what kind of people do i wanna be?

I can hardly tell any of them.

Decisions are made not for sorrow.

I know what i'm waiting for. But it won't come by itself.

During the preparation of AW test of GRE, i wanna create myself an atmosphere of english. If you don't read carefully, just look at the entire interface, it definitely appears to be quite cool~ Don't be derisive at me. It never gonna be funny when you're forced to use english to describe something which is even not easy in your mother tongue.

What it seems like, is, ridiculous. haha~